Free speech

 Everywhere I go there are gatekeepers. like I have to be qualified to even speak. I believe some of them are hired by the government. The internet used to be mostly anonymous. now you have to worry if your boss or your landlord or your family would approve of your opinion. even on the internet there are people who seem to be trying to stop me from speaking. even when I am not trying to say anything controversial.  music

 I've been so alone that I prayed for people to understand me. I believe that is why I have what some people call the delusion of thought broadcasting. Maybe I'm not the only one who believes that other people feel your emotions or even think the same thoughts. even while under this belief I don't think i was understood. I'm on medication now but my time unmedicated was like a spiritual experience. my thinking and senses may be dulled but I still believe in my experience. Even if people could share the same thoughts they could never understand me. I am here on my blog where probably nobody will read. I don't believe in social media popularity contest brainwashing. the music still seems to understand me sometimes. It has a spiritual quality. my opinions are not responsible for your actions. other people however, are influencing your actions. I will sit here alone and pray for people to understand