Free speech

I used to smoke but I got asthma. after years of weazing and takiung medication while continuing to smoke I finally quit for good. every time I get around a smoker now I blow out my mouth  like blowing out a match or something. It must be psychological. in the book Black Elk Speaks they mention that the pipe is sacred. I see now that the native Americans knew that the tobaco herb was spiritual. It makes a connection between people like a yawn. A yawn is contagious. It makes other people yawn. Smoking is a social activity. I don't like to be around smokers now. Be careful who you smoke the peace pipe with.

the rear naked choke should be illegal. I've been choked out before.  the guy asked me if I wanted to wrestle. I said yeah and we were wrestling and he got me in the choke. I could barely tell him I gave up. that was the first time I saw that move. that was before ufc or mma or any of that. now they have ufc and people getting choked out. I say that if they are going to allow the choke then they should throw all the rules out. gouge their eyes hit them in the nuts or do whatever it takes to get out. It's a deadly hold and it has no place in civilized sports.............. If I was in a choke hold I would do anything to get out.

I have been matching music to the posts i make here. they match too good to be coincidence. it messes with my head so much that maybe i make connections some times but i'm telling you. it's too fucking much coincidence. vague lyrics that only the artist really knows the meaning of. I had this idea that if you had a device that sent a subatomic particle back in time 1ps then you would receive the signal before you started sending it. you could then loop it back through the device another 1ps until you got to the desired time. the packages would have to be  routed to the destination like an internet packet. so the songs are kind of like that because they match my life at a specific time.earlier they meant nothing. maybe months from now I will never be able to prove it. there are people that know. they also make music possibly just in an attempt to intimidate. here is a couple examples. Way too specific there. not sure if t

yes i hear voices. i was in the  library today and i heard the voice of a man reading his book .just barely. I can hear with my eyes and see with my ears if you know what i am saying. they take the handles off the spickets. put locks on the dumpsters. codes to get in the bathrooms. they have dogs and people creeping around harassing you. I can spot them just by sight most of the time. then they throw people in the street for no reason.

I  have been trying to figure out what has been going on. I have to come to the conclusion based on what I see that the people here are racist. It's crazy because before I always knew there was a some kind of problem between white people. I remember oprah winfrey airing the blue eye brown eye experiment. it was disturbing to me. i have a blue eyed sister and a brown eyed sister. both my parents have brown eyes. it's crazy. i totally removed racism from my  mind and I think that I might be the only one. here is another example of what I'm going through. I don't see any white people here at all. a few dirty blondes with dark eyes. mexicans have the majority of the jobs. you have a right to choose whoever you want but you do not have a right to cheat me. https://www.gemologyonline.com/Forum/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?f=37&t=24685&p=242149#p242149 you can see that months before I left this was already happening. It's like it's everywhere. last night I was in f

woke up on the sidewalk again. no use even trying to send emails.my birth certificate isn't going to get here. I can't get any cash assistance because no ID. no bus pass because no ID. $192 is $6 a day. I'll have to get my clothes from the garbage. nobody will talk to me like they know me. but they don't like me. All they do is tease me. Intention is what matters. you can hug someone with a death wish. you can slap them with love. anyone can anoy you with anything if they want. A friend doesn't wait for you to beg. you had my support till now. I know now that what I do for you will never be repayed or even appreciated. I want to know one thing. did you get my messages and did you try to reply? My daughter is not my daughter. If she is she isn't any more. I need someone to talk to. desperation doesn't make you worth my time.

I found a Bible the other day. there was a statue of a man with his hand out and there was a book in his hand but I kept walking. later I went back and looked in the garbage and there was the Bible. I'm sure it was the same book that was in the statues hand. Just now I flipped throught the book and sometimes i pick out verses that seem to be saying something to me. not always. I always say that I didnt do it. it happened but I don't know how. so I found a chapter that jumped out at me.  ACTS chapter 8. The part that jumped out was about 26-40. it looks sort of like sychronicity. it's in the Bible and it's about the Bible. I'm going to finish reading. Is it in my head?

both my grandpas fought in WWII  to stop fascism. they fought and killed their own people. Both had German blood. Blast off, it's party time and we don't live in a a fascist nation. blast off it's party time and where the fuck are you? If you make me want to die then why would I be afraid of you?