Free speech

I have decided that I should expect to be disrespected here. the situation seems to gradually decline until I have to move. they are following me everywhere I go. I have considered suicide. It's not for cowards. I can do a few things to resist but never make a difference by myself. they won't listen to reason. spike in the cracks in the road to flatten tires. push a stick in the keyhole of locks and break them off. I am considering a cellphone jammer made from a chattering relay or a dc motor in series with a transformer.the transformer would step the voltage up to make a spark. the spark would jump between two tuned antenna. .08meters is what I get for the resonant frequency at 915mhz. just waisting my time. I feel like I've been in prison my whole life. my life has been shit the whole time. I'm healthy enough to live a long painful life.

I was thinking of my daughter last night. the rest of them can go to hell if they don't like me. I think they deliberately tortured me my whole life. I'm trying to explain to them what I went through growing up and they don't care. It's because they already know and they did it. I was trying to tell my daughter the way I see things. I didn't go far enough. It's much worse. I told her that if the world had no love that I wouldn't want to live forever. I thought more about it. What if they engineered humans to have no pain at all. no emotional or physical pain. No love, love hurts. You might still be intelligent but you would'nt be human. Your creativity would be gone. I have had a lot of ideas stolen. I think most of their inspiration for life would be gone. maybe they could still feel physical pleasure. They would lose motivation. hedonism. they would not exist long I think. worry and fear prevent accidents. respect, manners, kindness and love for other

they have to have a social network of some kind. it reminds of an old phrase. if we hit the bullseye, all the dominos will fall, like a house of cards, checkmate. I was at the park again and someone called the park security and said I was camping. I just want a quiet place to stay in the day. I sleep somewhere else. I the got the security people's name s. Wilson and jbeily were ther last names. they harassed me and said it was a law that I couldn't hang my bag oin the fence. I'm still alive. I want a bus ticket out . I'm not sure where to go. I think maybe washington d.c.. my old town is gone and this one sucks. 

I was at the park t the other day. It's a dog park. a park used mostly for dogs. the other day a man came in with a dog. he would stand there and the dog would be looking the other way then he would start saying "no,no" and the dog would come at me. he did it 3 or 4 times.a woman came back with the dog today. i was in no mood. i scared the dog away by holding my knife and yelling "back off". the  dog was a rotweiler about waist high. I forgot about it and a few minutes later the cops showed up. they tried their usual harassment routine to make me talk or get angry. I stayed calm and got their names. a woman cop mitchel. a woman cop cladderbuck. a man cop alder. they didn't seem worried about an angry dog running loose in the park. I think maybe someone had their personal cell phone number. the worthless shit should have no job at all. I can't get a cell phone. I need my id. I need my birth certificate for that. My birth certificate is taking a lon

I need to add the details about the fight. th eguy was in my spot. I' m being followed and harassed. I was fed up. I told him he was in my spot. He got hostile. like he was going to kick my ass.I sprayed him right in the face with a spray bottle of bleach It didn't phase hime.The people are some kind of trained fighters You look at them like they are frail and weak but when you get them angry the puff up and surprise you. I can spot them coming at me from down the road . It's like I sense they are coming towards me. they are always making noise or walking up to me specifically and saying something. I don't know you. just say hi maybe. I thought I broke the guys ribs. I let him go and stood up and asked for his cellphonme on the ground and kicked them to him. I left and made the video. Then he came back. I didn't want to risk another fight.You can die in a street fight. I was shocked he came back I crossed the street to get away. the people at the bar ac

I have a whole week till I get my food stamps. I have to eat whatever I can find till then. All I could find today was butter. I think they might be trying to give me a heart attack by feeding me butter. They might think it was funny because I went around drawing broken hearts. I tried to think of a comeback. The fist thing that popped in my head was lots wife. Why a pillar of salt? Then I realized that  the people in the old days must have seen their livestock licking salt just like farmers  use the salt todayfor their cattle.

I have  thought up a lot of ideas that someone else finished. upverter and webtronix is one example. I say good for them but really I could use the cash. You know, homelessness. OpenBCI came out with the ganglion while I was working on project telepathy. there are a few other examples where maybe someon was inspired by my idea. I want to point out this blog I had on linuxquestions.org. https://www.linuxquestions.org/questions/blog/cyb0rg777-157017/ Look for yourself. Thanks to linuxquestions.org. I love the site but I guess I outgrew it. I can google things and RTFM now. I'm not trying to take anyone's credit. I feel left out. I think I should have been noticed and maybe asked to join in.