Free speech

I like to use herbs medicinally. I like to pray. I have rules about my own thoughts. A moral code I guess. I believe in certain paranormal abilities. I've been reading comments by an old friend and suddenly I've discovered double meanings in some of them. A certain comment that seemed to be a warning may have been a hidden complement. I'm undecided. Like if I said "that guy is scary". Did I mean to say "other people should stay away from him" or "that guy is impressive"? It's ambiguous. In case you can't tell I'm talking about females  I suspect of witchcraft. I hope they are not planning anything harmful. PLEASE talk to me or I will leave soon. I can't move on. I can't seem to talk to anyone. I'm not harming anyone. My ex kind of scares me. Now 2 of them kind of scare me. I feel good but that could change at any time. I'm trying to figure out their signals. I just want a reply. no memes or photos. Real words. Ge

I'm still surviving but very lonely. I know I'm not perfect. I'm far from perfect but it keeps me from being too proud. Fools are made by liars.

So I got bored and I got out my laser pointers to play with. My favorite is the purple uv laser. I was pointing it at the sky and I noticed that if you look directly down the beam it is visible. Then I noticed something strange.  My breath was causing the light to be even more visible. The visible portion seemed to persist for a second even when I stopped breathing on it.  I thought for a minute it was steam but I'm pretty sure now that was wrong. Today I tried something different. I took a lighter and lit it under the beam. It produced the same effect but only when you struck the flint and lit the gas. It even seems to work with a red laser. If I was going to guess, it looks like there is gas being trapped in the beam. I wonder how good that would work in a vacuum. I call dibs on this idea.#spacex

So I'm sitting here alone and someone calls and doesn't talk. I *69 and get the number because my caller id is a little messed up. I *67 to block my number and call them back. An unrelated fact is that you can *69 to call back a numbe that is blocked by *67. so th woman that answers says someone cloned her phone. I found the area code was new jersey. I wouln't have payed so much attention to a call like that except nobody ever calls. Last night I accidentally formatted the wrong drive when reinstalling debian. No big deal I have a backup. except my backup drive is corrupted. So for now I lost everything that I have been backing up for about 15 years except for my github stuff. My ex wife has a backup external drive. Yeah that's going to be fun....  So I'm wondering if my calls are getting through and I tried adding my cellphone number to my facebook. That's all I have on facebook is my phone number because memes suck and I want to talk to people. So I dial m

So I was so bored I decided to go to the beach. I went to the beach and hardly anybody was there. I stopped to sit under a tree but I got bored. I checked my cellphone which I normally remove the battery from. I decided I had to pee so I needed to head back to the beach. On the way something hit my car. I had to turn around to see what it was. It was female cardinal laying on the ground dying. I know it was a female because they are duller color. It fell from the sky. I was only going 25mph. So I left....

So the last 2 weeks have been surreal. I'm discovering that I'm probably where I am at this point in my life on purpose. Nobody has noticed my missing post. I'm pretty sure that my isp is responsible for poisoning my internet traffic. There is no response from them through email and I went to their location to complain. It didn't help. My whole internet might be a honeypot. I logged in to chat roulette because I was so lonely. All I found was men masturbating and surprisingly, people making fun of me. Mr. Schnitzer seems to have disappeared from youtube. I'm hoping this is a statewide phenomenon and I can run for the state line but I'm not sure. I can't get advice about where to go and I can't seem to communicate with anyone. This is a prison. I don't think that I'm divine. I'm not a witch. I'm just human. If you can read this post, I'm ok for now but I do need help.

Break 1-9 for amish people. Do we got any amish people out there?

I've got some things I need to take care of soon. I've been very careful but I  know that they will be expecting me. I've been so bored that I've been playing on the phone. My paranoia must be acting up because something doesn't seem right. I'm a little worried about Mr. Schnitzer because I haven't seen him make a new video in over a week. I've been wanting to talk to an old friend but they will not talk and I'm a little upset about it. Besides that, I'm fine. Happy 4th of July.