Free speech

I have said before that I think that what is happening is that I might have been hypnotized in some way to make mistakes and harm myself. yesterday was a very bad day . My cart kept breaking. I kept fixing it but I couldn't keep it fixed. I woke up this morning and my cart was more broke than it was last night when I went to bed. I have been searching for a technique to remove any hypnotic suggestions or triggers that might cause this behavior. I'm trying something new today exercising my awareness. Mindfulness has been all over the media. I couldn't see what would be valuable about it myself until now. I knew there was propaganda but I didn't really think that we were under attack back then. a lapse in attention and focus could be the cause. science!

I was at the library trying to figure out what I can do because I am bored. I'm, going to make batteries out of vinegar and salt because I have zero dollars . I was looking for some electronics ideas. people used to use parallel or serial ports for io but my laptop doesn't have those. I figured out that probably the best port to use would be the sd card that uses spi. then I realized that most cellphones also have an sd card interface. It might not be programmable though because of the limitations of android. I still can't get anyone to talk to me. everything still looks strange. I called my daughters number and some guy answered saying he didn't know her. whatever. people harassing me on the street. I want my life back. you spread social bullshit everywhere. nobody wants to like me. they don't care who I am at all. still hoping it's a joke. coincidences everywhere. there is no way you can win. stop before more people find out.  tell them what you have done so

here are my first images. I'm going to try to collect and analyze them. sunlight tapwater

forced to leave the library. they said I was disturbing their peace. this reminds me of jeremiah chapter 6 where they cry peace peace but there is no peace. I'm in the area of the capital building for a while. do you know what is disturbing? thinking that someone in the white house might hear a voice in their head telling them to meet them in the bathroom. bill clinton never had to leave his desk. I made some tweets to the president and mitch mcconnel this morning. my civil rights are seriously violated and nobody will help me at all. it's like the whole world is crazy. I don't think I need to repeat what I said. here is my twitter. https://twitter.com/home

I'm really upset that I have to say this. I've been here for months and I'm forced to admit that most of what is going on is racism. I wasn't even noticing peoples race when I got here. I ignored  seeing mostly mexican neighborhoods. couldn't ignore when I went through towns like this one. the majority of the homeless people are white. The majority of the city workers are mexican. Most of the black people seem easy to get along with. hardly anybody is saying anything to me. I'm shocked at the hypocrisy so I want to make a list. Segregation. special bathrooms with a combination so only people who have it can use them. Affirmative action. Unfair hiring practices Immigration problems. They stole stole my ID and won't et me get it back. Injustice. the police have been totally unfair. Sexism. the women are probably the root of the problem and they have the worst attitudes. I get less help because I'm a man. This is sickening. So you need help and

Si I'm at the grocery store standing in line. there is a nice looking short blonde woman with tattoos in front of me. my breakup was miserable. I never planned to get divorced. I was forced. the best part is now i know there's no chance that is going to work so I'm a free man. The woman in front of that womans asks if I want in front of her. I'm like "no". you can't let someone cut in the middle of the line, only the end. then a man walks up and asks the woman in front of me if she wants to use another checkout and she leaves. you should ask the guy in the back of the line not someone in the middle. WTF? I have a joke. I should work at the grocery store because I like checking out the women. I've seen the same shit happening other places. I look at girls in the park and some guy walks up and starts talking to them or something. that would be creepy if I did it. too aggressive for me. It's always the ladies choice so it's ok if they do it. th

I was trying to find something to do. I always do science so I was looking for science to do. I made a sprectrometer at home before . so i was thinking that I could  make on to test the water. I have been collecting lenses but I don't many that are good for the project. I used a cd the last time but I want to make a prism this time. the only thing I could find was a water prism but that might interfere with the results.I wanted a glass prism. I have my quartz still but it's hard to get it at the right angle. I had a strange idea that might work. I could try casting a prism from gelatin. I'm not sure it would work. still looking. I thought I needed software to analyze the spectrum. I couldn't find anything for linux. there are android apps. I like using a database to compare the results. the only thing you really need is a known good sample to compare with the sample you are testing.