Free speech

The state police were just here. Me and my daughter had an argument and someone called in anonymously. They walked in my house without a warrant. They would not leave till I let them in. I'm putting this in my blog too. you know who I am. The joke will be on you in the end. Your governor is gay.

Google results were better 15 years ago. IT seems that all  the results are deliberately giving me bad information. Make me buy the wrong this or that and nothing I need is ever cheap. I got kicked off the dating site too. I'm screencasting every internet session now. When I bust your shit I'm going to have evidence my rights were violated. We'll let the judge decide. Remember your oath!! Punitive damages Judge Judy!

I have noticed a few interesting things I want to write. I have been having a tingling in my limbs especially my left arm. I thought it was nerve pain. It feels like electricity. the funny thing is that if I touch my other arms especially interlocking my fingers it goes away after a couple minutes. The other day I was having nerve pain in my legs so bad I couldn't sleep and I turned off the main breaker and it went away. So did the annoying song that was stuck in my head. Possibly mind control. Maybe they just stopped doing it when I turned the power off to confuse me. I get images flashing in my head. I was on the dating site. I'm not now because they mysteriously deleted my account. I guess I have nothing to do now.They funny thing is that if I look at pictures of faces or porn. Yes I look at porn. I think a little libido is good for you if you don't let it control you. When I close my eyes I see images in my head. I don't recognize any of the images as something ...

So I have been having a problem meditating lately. I had a bruise on the left side of my left eye. There were neighbors living next door for like 2 or 3 days and now they are gone. I thought it was the incense I was using but  now I think not. Possibly poison from the food. I don't think so. yesterday I pulled out and a van pulled in front of me. They adjusted their mirror and when I checked mine it was totally twisted. I had my car door locked and I would have heaard someone get in it. I both pray and meditate. The prayers are still okay. I guess could try some voodoo or othe spiritual techniques. When applied with a kind heart and good intentions I would have no problem with any of that. My spell check is totally broken. I guess that's how I missed their witchcraft (pun). I still have a soul and I still have a will. You did this hwole thing if it wasn't for you trying to torture and embarrass me  there wouldn't have been a shit storm or shit tornado. I still hav...

I've been sitting here seven months now alone. Some guys would be drunk. I'm not good at drinking. It makes me puke, I have bad hangovers and sometimes I black out. I don't want to criticize my ex too much but I have some things I have to say. I was in the hospital and the nurse came to check on me every hour at night. I was paranoid so I set some cups by the door to fall over when they opened it. I was lonely so I grabbed my pillow and held it like someone was laying next to me. The nurse kept opening the door and knocking the cups over and waking me up. She opened the door one time and said "I always fall for your booby traps". When I was married for 23 years my wife wouldn't let me hold her at night. I'd put my arm over her and she would almost yell "you're on top of me.". I tried to talk to her about how I felt but it was hard. I wanted to look in her eyes and show her how I felt. She had a lazy eye. My grandma had a crooked eye.  I never...

While you go through your day pretending you can still be normal knowing people are trying to kill you, who is watching your children? If you get sick I guess you will be blaming your wheat gluten. I've been here alone 7 months now. I'm everything you say you want but nobody wants me. If anyone cared about me they wouldn't bother even going to work before checking to make sure I'm okay. That's what you do when someone you care about needs help, right? Maybe you're waiting for something like I am. You will never be able to make up for this. I see now like my whole life was a setup. All the struggles and pain. I have some tips for meditation. When you have aches in your body that cause you to lose focus try this recipe About 1/4 cup rubbing alcohol About 1/4 tspn cayenne pepper About ten drops wintergreen oil This makes a rubbing compound that works really quick. If you have a stopped up nose rub  some peppermint oil under your nose. A lot of meditation fo...