Free speech

So I have been playing with crystals and lasers.I ordered this glow sphere on ebay. The listings were confusing because they said "calcite fluorite quartz". They are 3 separate substances that I don't think even form together naturally. I know calcite glows and fluorite fluoresces and quartz has triboluminescence meaning that if you strike it it creates light like wintergreen lifesavers when you bite it. The first thing I did with the sphere is put it under a black light. It charged up in seconds. The laser was more interesting though. You shine the UV laser and you can draw on it. My green one is brighter but it doesn't charge the crystal at all. I was wondering if this could be used for some type of memory? Maybe intel should be notified. I'm sure they never thought of it. Whatever, I found it and it was cool.

So when I go to facebook I type my email name like eetekguy and it lets me login. How does it know what the domain is? Is it yahoo? Is it google? I found this months ago. I knew this was rigged but I have been very patient. What the hell is going on? I went to chat roulette. Did I say this already? There was a video screen with an icon on it.  I went to  the bathroom and came back and it was different. When I got on the people where  making fun of me. Chat roulette is supposed to be random but they all make fun of me. I  knew I was a prisoner and this has been very entertaining. P.S. You did this deliberately.  I don't know how far back this goes. You suck and you owe me.

This is a fake login for google. A fake login for facebook. I could tell you some jokes and I might win the war.... I understand you only want to torture me. That's fine because the devil will have his turn with you. You messed up my head and now you think you can do anything you want. I'm betting on the afterlife. Gemstones, bet on the afterlife. Prayer, bet on the afterlife. Excercise, bet on the afterlife. You are gluttons. You are greedy. You are vain. Slothful. Etc... I asked you to repay me. I offered to forgive you.  Nobody can save me but God from your selfish hateful asses. Place your bets.

I had this idea to start a "joke war". Then I realized that less fortunate people like me always get laughed at more. That was a stupid idea. I keep hearing someone say they will burn me. So I thought about being "roasted" or "burned" and it was hilarious but it got old because it was always my turn. I really can't do lines. I do improvisation pretty good in my opinion but a memorized line never works for me. I get accused of stuff all the time by voices I don't know. But I admit that I think I have telepathy. They seem to be afraid to admit something. What kind of war is this?

I've been listening to metal since my teens. I'm just now able to look up the lyrics and understand that some of it was not the satanic messages people accused but actually contained messages of morality and taught religion. I'm looking around and I see 5 pointed  stars. I'm wondering what they are. I heard right side up was good magic and upside down was evil. all these are right side up. They are everywhere. Barn quilts too. They are all different. Are they a code? I woke up very confused. I think I'm O.K.. I think someone is messing with voodoo. I don't really know what that is. What I think is that it's mind control of some type. Some guy in jail one time told me a strange thing. He said " all religion is voodoo". I disagree. Alcohol damages your brain. I think tobacco may have some second hand psychoactive affects. I might be wrong but that's what I think.

I had to go to the grocery store yesterday and I have not felt very good since. There was this guy that cut in front of me in line when I got gas. I didn't mind because I'm polite but he wasn't so polite because he just did it to mess with my head. Every time I go out I see a cop car either going out or coming back. Protect and serve? Maybe you are breaking in my house to poison me. How would I know? Maybe we just have a misunderstanding. That would be breaking and entering and possibly attempted murder. That's hard time.

Never underestimate a weaker opponent, or a woman, or a pet, or a bug, or a rock.

I'm caught in a trap you made for me. The "web" the "net" is now for entertainment only. You will end up in your own trap.

I was on the dating site and this guys picture pops up with the caption "blackout". So I skipped it cause I'm not into guys. Then I wondered why it popped up and I tried to go back but it was gone. I've been wondering if maybe someone has been messing with my mind. I'm fighting voices in my head. They make accusations and attack my self esteem. The internet is rigged so I can't get out. I get to listen to voices all day. New neighbors keep moving in and out. the voice are loud when someone is there and quiet when there is no one there. I would like to know the range of my telepathy. Break for a radio check. What is your 10-20? So "blackout" made me think. I used to drink so much I would black out. That's one reason I quit. What if someone could make you black out from a distance? Let's say you were sleeping. They knock on the door. It's someone you know. You open the door and they steal something. Then they make you forget the whole thi...

But I keep living....

Like anybody cares.

I have been diagnosed with a mental illness. My mother had the same thing. She heard voices. I started out with the delusion that people could read my mind. I can understand how hearing voices might be more disturbing. Since my last hospitalization I have been hearing voices. They usually sound like mumble from across a room and you can't understand them. Some of them I recognize as the the same "people". I have tried to ask them questions but they never answer. Usually they comment on things I am doing or thinking. They might repeatedly say stuff like "nope", "fuck you" or "we know". I think I am recognizing a goal. I think they use these phrases for attacks on on confidence and pretend to empathize in order to calm your motivation. Last night I did get a good piece of information. I will try to remember that voice.

Lets just say an attack of a personal nature. In my own house. After I chose to forgive you chose this. I'm trying to correct harmful behavior where you are trying to make me into you.

I am thankful today because the manager of the grocery store called to apologize after I made the complaint about what was happening. Trust is hard to regain but I do completely forgive them. I hope they are reading. I think they might be. The one thing I don't know is why they did it. What am I doing or what have I done that bothered them? I'm not a selfish person to think of only my own feelings. I am getting problems in every store so I am trapped in my house. I don't know what they will do next. You can't make someone so poor that they will leave I will tell you that. If they are poor they are stuck. I forgot to ask the man on the phone why they did What they did so now I don't want to bother them any more but I don't know. Why? Is it over now? Can I walk around and say hi to people at least?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shunning Probably invented by the devil. 11  But now I am writing to you that you must not associate with anyone who claims to be a brother or sister [ a ] but is sexually immoral or greedy, an idolater or slanderer, a drunkard or swindler. Do not even eat with such people. 9  But avoid foolish controversies and genealogies and arguments and quarrels about the law, because these are unprofitable and useless. 10  Warn a divisive person once, and then warn them a second time. After that, have nothing to do with them. 11  You may be sure that such people are warped and sinful; they are self-condemned. Don't worry I read both of those whole chapters for you. Sexual immorality, like internet porn and masturbation? Stirrers of controversy like people who play fox news in their waiting room? I can judge you just as easily as you judge me. Honestly I think these verses might be speaking about special cases and not meant to be a...

I have been looking up herbs and supplements. BE CAREFUL PLEASE. It's totally unregulated. They are selling everything from everywhere in the world. I looked up DMT because I was interested in the psychotropic effects and I found 3 herbs  available on ebay that contain DMT. There are new supplements coming out every day. It looks like very little testing and too much marketing to find real information. I'm not talking about banning everything. Someone should have at least a warning.  I need to elaborate here. I tried whey protein. I found a scientific study that says it helps maintain muscle in older people. I also found out that whey protein was a dairy waste product. Funny how they found a use for it. One time I found a soil conditioner that was supposed to break up clay soil. I found it was also scraped from industrial smoke stacks. Another waste product. It didn't work. Today I found pea protein. I never head of that. I have some DHEA that I haven't tried. I hear...

Just because I had a bad experience with marriage does'nt make it a bad idea. The law screwed it up. They over complicated it and played defender of women and children when it was none of their business. What is this song about? Here's the lyrics.I couldn't find a video with lyrics.Google fail again. I can't believe this fucked up world in which we're livin' in Still I do the best that I can Always got me on the lookout for a getaway Runnin' hard, I'm a rock 'n' roll man I know we can make it (and go, said that) all you gotta do is sign Tellin' you all I wanna do is rock 'n' roll [Chorus:] Too late for love - baby it's too late Too late for love - girl I gotta say That it's you, I know, that makes me feel this way Don't you know that it's too late for love Foolish hearts gettin' caught up in a lover's game That's the way some want it to be Now all I need is someone, just to get me ...

I have dirty secrets. I want you to know that telepathy exists. People can instruct other people to do things without them knowing. How can you blame anyone for anything now that you know? So before YOU judge ME make sure YOU are perfect. Push my buttons I dare you. Fuck you. You already did that's why I'm telling...

EXPLICIT! I wanted to go over a little of my sexual history but I'll keep that private for now out of respect for other people involved. I'm sort of celibate. I've been doing the no fap thing. I mark on the calendar every time I, uhm, can't control myself. So It's been six months since my wife left. She left on good friday. I haven't felt this good in like 15 years. I'm not sure what it is. I've been taking gelatin and I will swear by that but only because I've been taking it. I'm still a little stiff but I exercise for over an hour a day total every day. I've been taking a lot of supplements bought online in the last 3 months. I'll report what I think after I've been taking them longer. I've been taking hmb since about july 27th. For about a month I've been taking new herbs and I definitely feel something. About 5 different herbal aphrodisiacs. Yeah that's right. Testosterone boosters. I recently started creatine. I hav...

I've been stuck at home going on six months now. nobody wants me to leave the house. They suck and soon they will not be able to ignore me. I know how to do lonely. I'll just get stronger. I  prefer synergy but have it your way. Shut me up or let me talk, which one? Don't get any ideas. I saw mars rise in the big city. I'll walk with confidence.

Interesting video don't you think backstabber?

I had to go to the post office today. I put it off for many days because people like to harass me there too. The office is full of pretty young women and they always say stuff that messes with me. I always lock my doors when I go anywhere. You know being in a bad neighborhood...... So I came out and my doors were unlocked one time. That's one of hundreds of things these people have did to frustrate me. You can't get too frustrated because something as small as a fly can cause you to smack yourself really hard. Anyway. My stereo seemed to change to a specific song on the way there. And when I got back it played a song I didn't know I had. So I'm pretty sure someone is messing with my electronics. They might have noticed that I kept the music down and I went straight home this time. I feel like they are trying to tell me something. If you are trying to tell me something  there is this other electronic device called the telephone. I've told you many times my number is ...

I don't think I have put any of this here yet. You probably won't believe any of it. I have to because I seen it. Here goes.... This happened a couple months ago. I was watching stars and I noticed from my door that a bright star appeared at sunset. I wondered what it was so I looked it up on Stellarium. The star was Venus. I got on the cb later and blurted out a bunch of stuff. One of the things I said was how to spot Venus at sunset. A few days later I was up at 3am. I was sleeping on the floor. I looked at the window and there was a crack on the edge of the curtain maybe 1/2 inch wide through the crack I could see a star.I wondered what it was and I looked it up. It was the planet Mars.  I was astounded. It was awesome, literally. If I hadn't been up at 3am sleeping on the floor at that exact time in that exact spot I wouldn't have seen it. A few days later I drove to a  big city near where I live. I wanted to move and I was looking for a motel room. I couldn...

I changed my mind. We need that detention center. That's if they qualify as a low enough offense. First we need to see what who is doing. It need to visible so we can really get justice........ Soon the hidden will be visible. If you can't hide you have no power at all...... As long as people can do things that can't be seen we have no law. We have to make it all visible. I'm feeling better now. I woke wanting to kill you all. Every last one. 

I knew it might be a bad day but I tried. When the lady at the grocery store tried to keep my last bag for the third time I went off. I didn't hurt anyone this time. Maybe next time. I collected my wits and filed a complaint with the corporate management of the store. I feel a little better.

This worker at walmart seemed to know that I was looking for pepper jack cheese. I like pepper jack but I was actually looking for the jalapeno cheddar. Keep working on those cheese guessing skills because you were pretty close. Thank God for my sense of humor.

I need to go to the grocery store. My sensitive daughter will pretend nothing is happening and forget I asked for her help. Nobody will speak to me online. I'm going to lose it. In MMA a chokehold is legal. It's a deadly hold but if I gouge your eyes out that's not legal. So the law is like that. They can try to starve me to death and that's legal. They can harass me but I can't punch them. The worst is the thing that you don't know that they are doing. Some of those things are illegal. I may end up in prison or jail. I think I might snap. Your laws are a handicap to me. Maybe I should wave again so someone can shake their head at me. Moron. Let's just get it over with.....