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I have a creepy halloween story for you. It's personal stuff that I don't say usually but it is halloween so that's my costume. I don't want to brag but I meditate and pray a lot.   I have seen things in the sky. I have seen small white spots many times. I showed my ex wife one one time and she said she saw it too. I saw two planes one time that looked like they were fighting something higher up in the sky. I have seen lights that looked like planes at night but they appear and disappear for no reason. The other day I pulled to the end of the driveway and a shooting shot in the direction I was going to pull, as if to say "go". I've already explained the stuff about the stars I found. I feel like I'm under some sort of mind control so I question everything. I've been on psychiatric medication and I've been hospitalized and other thing have happened so there was opportunity for that. This morning I dropped a part and I looked for i...

I had this awesome hardware idea. My best ever maybe. I was making uv spotlights for my car. I got the lights and changed the led to uv. They had a dome convex lns on the front. After I played with them for maybe a month I realized they could be used for something else. A projector! So they have a tiny led in front. I took a Nokia 5510 lcd and cut a big square behind it to make the lcd see through. Funny thing it was almost like it was supposed to happen.I have to tell you the story. After I got back from that big city where I slept in the parking lot I cam back to my town but I was afraid to stay at home .I stayed in the parking lot and one the things that happened was that I saw a "shadow cat". The cat moved around, disappeared, reappeared and did cat stuff but it was only a shadow. So it's halloween and I'm scrambling like a lunatic to build this projector. Of course I want to project a cat. I'm not going to make. I got the idea the day before yesterday a...

I'm still bored and lonely. I'm not sure if I can trust anyone now. I wanted to download Jimi Hendrix along the watchtower and I got the song but I went to look up the lyrics and I fount that Bob Dylan wrote the song originally. I wanted to hear his version but I couldn't find a good  recording. I guess there is a lot of history that goes with that stuff that is before my time. I had a couple ideas. One of them I posted on slashdot already. I  don't post there often because most of that stuff is over my head. I  like to read though and I try to fit in. I had an idea about a game. It's probably been done already. A reverse violence game. The signs are all pointing there now that I think of it. The idea is that people are bothering you and maybe trying to start fights. Your goal would be to get through the game without being violent of causing injury. Then I thought about it more and I realized that's what cops do. 

Jesus said you can't divorce a woman unless she is unfaithful. I'm thinking that the guy he was talking to was tired of his wife or something. What if the woman is trying to kill you. I think Jesus would agree that you should throw the ring at her and run.

I had a lot of events to report but you know them already. The only cure for that arrogance is to make you beg. IT's easy to forget about this psychic control if you lose focus but I know now that what I've seen is a small piece of what is happening. I'm not exactly sure where it is coming from but I know it is there. It's all lies.Not just the government  , maybe reality itself. Every institution, Every source of information, Even our own thoughts. Let me explain my bad mood to people so they don't judge me as a hateful person. For the last 3days I have heard aerosmith angel playing in my head. It was never one of my favorites. I'm telepathic. I'm also a ham radio operator. Playing music is against the rules. Angels? Who's listening and are they friendly... THE PEN IS IN MY HAND? Is that the pen15? I don't like the pen15 in my hand.

So I woke up with a great idea. I went to buy a lotto ticket the other day. The first store I went to  was not selling lotto I went in and the music they were playing sort of messed with my head Not too bad  but a little odd. I went somewhere else to buy tickets. I handed the clerk my lotto slips and she complemented my hand made bracelet. I handed her a five for the tickets. She said there's blood on your money. I remembered that I did that cutting the stones for my bracelet. That was even more odd. Like I said all the stores are messing with people. Could be a coincidence. I won't hold it against them. I will go back and try again. Let's hope they don't do something even dirtier. I don't know poison or whatever. I made a new invention.  You can't even find them online. A 12v LED UV spotlight. 30 watts is awesome. I might go up to 50 watts. You just need a boost converter a high power UV LED and a housing and I like the convex lens. My design has went through...

More for me I guess.

I think I have  a message on facebook but they want my picture. I used Mark Zuckeburgs picture but I don't think it will work. It looks to me like face recognition would be easily defeated with a photograph or even a large tablet screen. I took your picture but I think you might have took my message. 

Welcome to fantasy island... I bought a  lottery ticket. I checked my numbers and the fantasy is gone now. I waited six months for nothing. I have that fantasy though. I'm going to last as long as possible. I'm going to try and help. I don't have any choice really. Hoops?  I see that I've been jumping through hoops. There is nothing on the other side.(For you...)? Some people like fishing but I was never any good at it. I guess fishing is fun unless that's all you have to eat.

I feel like I could die right now. But I won't. I don't know what I did to you to deserve this. Someone probably lied to you to make you do this. I cant believe any of you   would stoop this low. I'm going to survive. I'm going to use this pain. We are going to meet and you are going to answer to me eventually. It's always fun when you get bullied by a crowd  and you catch them alone one by one.

I don't want to bring divisive issues from the past but I think I just figured something out. We have an election coming up. Read these lyrics : Sweet home Alabama. Big wheels keep on turning Carry me home to see my kin Singing songs about the south-land I miss 'ole' 'bamy once again and I think it's a sin Well I heard Mister Young sing about her Well I heard ole Neil put her down Well, I hope Neil Young will remember A southern man don't need him around anyhow Sweet home Alabama Where the skies are so blue Sweet home Alabama Lord, I'm coming home to you In Birmingham they love the Gov'nor, boo-hoo-hoo Now we all did what we could do Now Watergate does not bother me Does your conscience bother you, tell the truth Sweet home Alabama Where the skies are so blue Sweet home Alabama Lord, I'm coming home to you, here I come Now Muscle Shoals has got the Swampers And they've been known to pick a song or two (yes t...

I don't know who is really doing this but I know who I have seen. People in my town and my ISP. I won't guess about anyone else. They are trying to get to me today. They must be afraid of something. I see what is going on here. It's a control system. I seen it years ago but I thought it was just unfairness.  It's a deliberate conscious choice to cheat and manipulate our whole society. Their main advantage is stealth. If people realize what is happening they lose that advantage. They have other tools too. Clicks and tribal behavior that turns people with similar interests against each other. I think maybe even targeted poisoning by producing food that maybe a certain group can eat but not others (glyphosate). I think that first thing we need to do is let them know we see them. This could be a large shocking change in the cultural norm that they have grown accustomed to. Put some fear in them..... Next we need to start repairing the system. Studying chemical in the fo...

My last friend on earth ripped my heart out and sold it to the highest bidder. It's just a misunderstanding...

We were saving to buy a car and we saved $2600. I gave my EX wife $1300 when she left and she has went through 3 cars. This post is just for locals that have me trapped. Fuck my isp, fuck the governor, fuck the president, fuck my senators. SORRY! It's just a  misunderstanding. You know because of my fucking isp. P.S. Hey world, I'm telepathic...

I want to know what has been done to me now!

The devil wants to thank you for that. Now get in.

I'm ready to go to bed and I have spent another day not having spoken to a human being. I'm definitely a prisoner here. Occasionally I get very angry about it. I know people here are watching me to. I don't know what they are so interested in me for. I've stayed stuck in this house for years. You know I want to talk to E.L. and you play with me like heartless jerks. I guess I haven't got any friends here. Why the long wait? I'm sure you have more torture planned for me. I can say anything I want since nobody views my blog. I yjnk you have something bad planned here. That's the way I felt for many years and now you are trying to tell me everything has changed but I'm not buying it. Why will they not let me walk around the damn grocery store without fucking with me? You deserve nothing. You are thieves with ill gotten gains bragging about how hard you work. I had this idea that you might be waiting for the election. I think there might be some genocide/eth...

I want to add some information about myself that I think might be helpful. My poop was brown today and a little soft. That's where I'm going with this. Is stuff being studied or are we all too embarrassed? I have been using testosterone boosters like I was saying. When I was teenager I could get an erection from a sexy picture. About 19 I don't know why. It got  less easy ( not much harder...). I used used to be able to have sex as long as I wanted. After about 19 I could only have 1 orgasm. Lately when I sleep I have an erection. I wake up it goes away. I've never had much size to brag about but antipsychotic medication made that worse I think. It's better lately. Here is a list of the supplements I have been taking and a rating for each based on the effect I thought it had on me. 1-10. distilled water 8 (health) gelatin     8 (joint pain) creatine   3 (strength) HMB calcium b-hydroxy-b-methylbutyrate 6 (strength) HMB calcium b-hydroxy-b-methylbutyrate m...

So my meditation has been very light since I discovered those tips I was talking about. I'm hearing voices saying they are beating me and taunting me. This is not a fair game number one. I have no idea what's going on number two. You sound like the same jerks that have always  taunted me, three. I don't care. This is a system of control. I will meet you in town and tell you face to face about it. I'll go buy a megaphone.  I was arrested for not taking drugs.They took 3 guns a police scanner and a samurai sword that I never got  back. I was charged with assault when I was the one tackled. When I got up off the ground a young cop with an ar15 style rifle ejected a shell from the chamber that he had cocked to shoot me with. I was charged with serious physical injury when I didn't land a punch. I was denied bail even though I didn't have a record. They said the computer was down. My public defender would'nt listen to my story at all. I stayed in jail for 2 m...

I guess I'm a terrorist. Trying to use religion to scare people into being moral. I hear what they are saying and they know there is something going on with me. They are trying to hide me. they want me to lose my temper. They want me to be lonely. There's 2 more definitions of burning I guess. At least I have emotions though. At least I have empathy. Go to church today and try to find another reason to accuse me and hate me. Try to to trick me into feeling something negative. lies hurt people too. I get angry but I won't hate you. What are you doing this for? I will never trust(an emotion) you again. You are not humans. Is it the pope? is it the baptists. Maybe you are telepathic witches and I'm jamming your frequency? I don't see the reason for this. I want a life like you have but with love emotions and less lies. Loyalty empathy love are good things that I have. You use them to torcher me. I'm up at 5am on sunday. I'm still up. I forgot respect and ...

I'm imagining some guys with top hats and monacles watching me on camera. They are in tuxedos,holding canes and have white mustaches. They have a deep funny laugh when I get angry. What can I say?

I need to write this down. I don't think I have and I'm starting to forget it so I'll write it here. I went out soon after my wife left. I stopped at a convenience store and bought a coke. after that I went to the auto parts and bought wipers. the guy gave my change back and added a penny to save change. The guy behind me said something strange. "You know when you need wipers.When your going to work."  I took it as an insult because I'm on disability. I thanked the man for the penny. I went out again another day and stopped an bought the same coke. The lady said the price but I didn't hear it right. I gave her 2 dollars and she gave me a dime. I thought she said 1.09 and I gave her $2 So I asked and she said $1.91, And I thanked her for the penny. Later I Thought about it and I remembered the first coke did cost $1.09. I remembered reaching in my pocket for change.  So I thanked her for the penny but actually she had charged me $.81 more than the first t...

Windstream thinks it's not bad enough that I'm here alone so they get some jerkoff to call and ask for my wife. I say She doesn't live here and he just says "yeah". So I'm really pissed right now and he's probably laughing. Besides needing to be illegal whether it is or not this motherfucker needs to feel some pain. I got your number. 386-234-6089. I call back and it says unallocated. I'll use my "other" phone.

Why does my air conditioner not blow outside air in? It's cool outside but I can't blow the air in. That and I'm really lonely.

I'm doing the best I can with the information I have. Can I have better hallucinations?  

I have been exercising a lot. A  have been doing 100 situps every day. 90 pushups. I can do 60 at 1 time. I do weights in the morning and rubber bands at night. Over an hour every day for maybe 4 months now without skipping a day. I have been slipping recently so I'm going to rest a little. I got a phone call today and the person didn't speak. I get a lot of those. I held the phone wondering why they where doing this and then  I asked them  "can you hear me". Finally the voice of an Indian woman asked for my wife. I told her "she doesn't live here any more".She said something I can't remember.After that the library called about my overdue books. I was wondering how long they would let me keep them. They usually call when they are overdue and these where like 2 months overdue. I went out even though I didn't plan on it. People look strange. They don't seem human. I see people I knew years ago that look like they haven't aged. Like in 20 ye...

I got a phone call a minute ago. It was a machine. I barely heard what they said.I started thinking about what I heard. I kept coming up with accusations against myself.  I have another theory that the machine voice is hiding a subliminal message. If you think of the existence of telepathy as a fact and you combine that fact with known psychological phenomenon like hypnosis and placebo you can come up with a lot of interesting applications. A trigger thought that puts someone under hypnosis. The most obvious tool that I've seen used is guilt. I've discovered some techniques in the last couple of days that I'm going to test. When lifting weights I was having some pain. I was watching the bodybuilders online to see their focus technique. Eyes open or eyes closed? A lot of them had their eyes open so I tried it. After about a month I started getting sore and losing some strength. I don't know if it is diet, overworking or a bad supplement. I have quit most of my suppleme...

So I woke up thinking. Most of the people I have been seeing that are messing with me seem to be there just to do that. They walk up to items in the store and look at them and I'm drawn to look too. But they don't have a cart. The girls putting things on the shelves are gathered in large groups but they are hardly working. The only places to meet are the store( that is seriously screwed up), the school( serious mind control) and the church( need I say more). Everyone is looking at screens and nobody is talking. Self checkouts, yada yada... I've even been thinking about my own life and my family and how we were specifically  targeted to be isolated. We don't get special help finding jobs or friends or good deals on ANYTHING. WHAT the FUCK? I had more to say but it's fading. I hope you understand. Oh yeah,Drugs. You can get get fucking stoned and kill brain cells together..